Love love love

She wished for him on full moon nights. She did every little thing to be in his good books. She opened her inbox hoping to get a mail from him. She slept with her phone next to her ears not wanting to miss his calls even when the night was dead. She dreamt of him, she spoke of him, whatever she did was connected to him at some level or the other. She looked at him with her puppy dog eyes, in midst of all the blushing. She hoped one day he would return her look and hopefully even return the feeling. In short, she loved him. He didn't love her. That didn't stop her from revolving her entire life around him. Pure, innocent love.

Years passed. The bond just strengthened. She loved him more than ever. Winds of change had changed their course. The guys heart begins to beat for her. A feeling that he had never experienced before, a feeling that scared the living day lights out of him. He snubbed the feelings. "You are too good for me", he said. But she didn't give up. She should have. I definitely would've!! She believed in heart of hearts, they were meant to be.

Time flew by. He was a fine young man. She was a tender girl. "You are too good for me", he said. Something inside her broke. Something which probably would never be fixed. She moved away. She let go. If it is meant to be, it will. There was a hole drilled in her heart. The hope in her heart leaked out a little from it. Little bit every passing day.

Life does work in mysterious way. It brought them face to face. Confrontation wasn't easy for a guy who's heart was frozen in time and the girl who's heart was locked. They were perfect for one another. Forces of nature bought them together. Such is the strength of plea of love.

First time in life they experienced happiness. They smiled, they laughed, they held hands and went on romantic walks. They looked into each others eyes, thankful that they happened.

"I wanna spend my life with you. That's the only dream I've ever had", she said.
"I want the same love. But we have to wait. My dreams await me. I need to fulfill them", he said

For the first time she realized, probably she was never his dream. She wasn't even a part of it. Tears rolled down her cheek. "It's ok", she said. "I am gonna be there for him. Probably one day I'll be a part of his dream"

The guy starts chasing his dreams. Every step he takes, the dreams evade him further.

"It's all gonna be ok honey. I am there for you" she said.

Few years pass by. The dream remains unfulfilled.


"I wanna realize your dream with you. ", she said.
"My dreams are my own. I need to realize them.", he said
"Let me be a part of it. Lets realize your dreams together. Please take me with you", she said

She didn't get an answer.Silence tore her apart. Probably she should have got the cue. But she shrugged it off. Hole in her heart grew bigger dispersing more hope. "Things will get better, I hope", she thought.

Years later.
"Don't make me chose between my dreams and you. You are not gonna like the answer", he said. "I am doing this for us. Don't stifle me. This is how its gonna be. The choice is yours. Stay if you want to".

There was no hole. Just a broken heart. All the hope had escaped leaving a shadow of a girl she used to be.

Few months later:
"I know it's too early and I don't know much about you. But I would like to spend my entire life knowing you and loving you the way only I can. You are the dream I want to realize, you are the life I wanna live. Just give me a chance and I'll make sure your smile shines brighter than the sun", he said

It had been months since the guy left her broken. For years she had loved the guy only to have a dream chosen over her. This was her chance to break free. This was a chance with a man who probably wasn't who she desired. He wasn't a man of her dreams, but he was a man who would realize her dream. Nursing a broken heart is easier if you have someone to nurse it with you.

She looked back once and for the last time. There he stood, the guy of her dreams. Hoping she would wait for him, but not letting her be a part of his dream ; claiming he loved her but not holding her hand. Tears rolled down her cheek, for what could have been and what was. "Good bye my love", she said.

The man took her hand ; a hold that signified love, a hold of support. She looked at the ring on her finger - birth of a new relation and a seal on the old one. A step ahead into a new life, a step towards mending a broken heart, a step that would change her life forever. Some stories have to end for new ones to begin.

More often than not love and loved ones are taken for granted. They understand what I am going through, you think. But is that always the case? Is that how responsible you can get while handling something that fragile? Why does it always have to be a choice between your loved ones and your dream? Can't they go hand in hand? It's always lonely at the top. Any amount of success, stature, money is nothing if you don't have someone to share it with. Any dream that's built on broken relations and hurting hearts cannot sustain for a long time. And when it does come down shattering, you don't have anyone to support you through it.

I am no love guru but I can say this with utmost conviction - finding love is tough. If you have not found it, then make sure you don't blow it away when it finds you. If you've found it then hold on to it. No dream is worth living if you have no one to live it with for love elevates you to where you belong.

P.S : For all those who have found their soul mates, I've just 3 words for you - MAKE IT WORK!