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Thursday, July 21, 2011

Silence

I have never liked the word "silence". It's not something I associate with peace. I've always been scared of silence coz as far as I am concerned, it almost always translates to pain. All the hues and cries that manage to catch people's attention is just tip of the iceberg. Greatest of sufferings are always locked in the deeper darker part of the heart. No amount of love and patience can set them free, especially when the defenses are this high.

I've always wondered, about the types of masks people adorn. More often than not, a smile conceals a tear ; laughter conceals fear; louder the sound of it, more pain it conceals. All this boils down to a very simple principle - if you wanna hide something from someone, place it in their line of sight. In all possibility, they would overlook!

I've tried almost every mask available in the market.
The Smiley : "You have an amazing smile", they say. Oh yeah? There you go. I made your day. Now get out of my face!
The Frowny : "Cheer up! I got something for you. You'll feel better" I am gonna throw up!
The Thinker : "You seemed to be engrossed in something. Won't you share the secret!" I am freak-en sharing my life in more nonsensical ways than I can imagine! That should suffice!
The Bubbly one : "Wow! You are one chirpy thing" Oh yeah baby.. wait til I chew your head right off!
The Quite one : "Oh.. what happened dear?Why aren't you talking? You know, you look so much more better in your old bubbly self" Don't you dare call me old!
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and many more..

But somehow, the one thing all these masks successfully conceal is silence - silence of the heart. No one has enough time to look that deep and call you on it. Even when it's staring them right in the face, it gets unnoticed with the game show of masks happening around it!

"I wan't you to tell me what's wrong", they say. Silence does speak louder than words. I will not say a word. It is not a victory. It just means that I will suffer in silence.





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