Across boundaries

Devil : Everyone dreams!

Moi : < condescending > I am not everyone. 

Devil : It's a natural process. Every single person has a dream. Whether he follows it or not is secondary.

Moi : What's the point in not following a dream, if you have one! There you go. Hence established I am better off!

Devil : Isn't there anything that you really wanted from life?

Moi : Yup. I did and I have him now! <flutters eyelashes>

Devil : Isn't there more you would wanna have?

Moi : Hmmmm.. I would. But it would almost be like a miracle if I were to get them!

Devil : And you of all the people don't believe in miracles???

Moi : If I didn't, I wouldn't know what to call you!

Devil : And your life ends here? You don't wanna add anything more to it? Isn't there anything that you would wanna make happen??

<thunderbolts> < lightning > EPIPHANY!

One sure shot way of getting me to do something is to challenge my abilities! Perhaps, I know no boundaries then. My conversations with the devil have always left me thinking "Let's push those boundaries!" There are things about yourself that you won't probably discover until someone shoves it down your throat! I am no different!

My latest learning about myself - I love challenges! (quite contrary to my earlier beliefs!) I've never really been the "I gotta win this competition" types. (Devil readily disagrees!) I've never really fought for things. If they come my way I accept them, if they don't well.. too bad for them! Guess, my normal state of existence can be summed up as "complacence".

It is only off-late that I realized, the parts of my life where I was full of life, exuding unparalleled enthusiasm and zeal, was when I challenged my (perceived) limits. 

"You can't give a speech in front of so many people!" Just watch me, will you. 

The applauds did shut up the critics!

"You cannot make it to the top level in the cabinet! Be grateful if you even made it to the cabinet!" Won't you say hi to the new president guys??

Open mouths did shut with the sound of a resounding slap!

"You can't top in anything!" And the proficiency prize goes to Shubha Holla. Ehh.. I hear no noise from you guys? Did I stun the living day lights out of you?

"You didn't get the job" 2 days, 2 companies later. "You got the job!" (company being bigger and badder (just the way I like it!) than both the earlier companies put together!)

"You can't quit this job! You have nothing in hand and no where to go!" I did quit the job, world was my playground!

"Your life is ruined! Who'll give you work now?" Boy! I am making almost double the money!

Enough said! All my actions, which involved defying rules, breaking free from the tradition or pushing the boundaries has always filled me up with life! If anything, according to me, qualifies to be unattainable, becomes my motive in life! Sadly though, there aren't a lotta things that come in that category! (so much for the positiveness in life!)

Truth is indeed stranger than fiction. While the rest of the world categorizes a lot of things under "the unattainable" and avoids them like plague ; I believe most of them can be attained, so no fun in following them! As twisted as the logic is, works perfectly sound in my case! 

Some of the epiphanic moments of my life have occurred during conversations with the devil. Sometimes, it's so much more important for another person to show you the mirror! (ya.. my kick-ass reflection doesn't let me concentrate if there is no nagging voice backing me up!)

I still can't paint a picture of my perfect life. But what I do know, is what makes my life worth living. New people, new experience, new learning and most importantly new un-learning! I can finally accept, what's poison for the world is chocolate for me! (I hate spinach!).

Past few days have been nothing less than new forbidden delicious chocolates! ( with a bit of weight control, the chocolates are worth succumbing too!) The twisted logic of mine does propel me to the “forbidden” zones. Surprise surprise.. look what I found there 

LIFE!!!!!

P.S : The only sensible thing to do with boundaries is to push them. - Sir Richard Branson